Goal 5. Stop taking alprazolam (for life). STATUS 1/7/2020: I've revised the final tapering phase to .25 mg every night before bedtime. February 18th, 2020 will be the last time I take alprazolam, for life. Beginning February 19th, 2020, I will be free from taking alprazolam. I revised the the final tapering phase because I feared another night of sleepnessness and weird dreams. EDIT: Per the Ashton method, though these these symptoms are unpleasant, they also represent a sign that recovery is beginning to take place. EDIT: Per the Ashon Method, "True Recovery cannot really start until the drug is out of the system." Last night, I stopped at the grocery store and bought a pillcutter. To my surprise, it worked well: I was able to perfectly cut the .5mg alprazolam tablets in half. So last night I took .25 mg before bedtime, and though I didn't sleep well, the wakelessness, sexual urges, and dreams weren't nearly as intense as the past few nights, when I took no alprazolam. I will take diazepam if my depression or anxiety feels overwhleming. I've had a 5 mg. tablet tucked into my wallet for many weeks now, and I feel comforted in knowing that I can take it if necessary. I am feeling stressed about work and about my ongoing vehicle repairs. I am having to be patient and trust that things will work out. I believe that I'm allowing these stressors to affect my mood and my sleep. I want things to work out for the best, but until then I need to focus on living one day at a time and working on what I can control. This feels incredibly difficult to do right now. Matthew 6:25-34. I'm feeling confident that .25 mg. per night before bedtime is the right way to taper. This means means that by February 18th, 2020 I'll have tapered 16 weeks. I'm thinking of ways to celebrate the accomplishment of this long-term goal.