I just want to thank everyone who created the site and all the people posting bringing this life destroying problem to everyone's attention. It has quite literally changed every aspect of my life for the better. A little history I was a well read happy positive child with a big imagination and a big heart. I loved making people laugh with impressions and various shenanigans. Although at 13 years old something changed I discovered masturbation (not porn straight away) and became obsessed just one year later I had zero confidence and used to get embarrassed over nothing and felt anxious just raising my voice in a group with anymore than 3 people. I figured it was just going through puberty and being a teenager but in my late teens and early 20's I couldn't understand it at the time but I just had this dark cloud over me every opportunity I had with work, girls and anything really I either ruined or didn't give a crap about. I just wanted to get by doing the bare minimum an easy job and get home and watch porn and bum around. But deep down I knew something wasn't right but I just thought this was how I was often blaming other people for how they would treat me when the truth was I was a loser who didn't deserve any respect. So fast forward to 2017 I stopped masturbation for a week as I was seeing a girl and couldn't finish after this fizzled out I went back to my old ways. At this point I just thought it was only for sex and if I wasn't having sex with anyone what was the point of abstaining. (Truth was I was so addicted it was disgusting) So a few months after that I abstained not intentially when we went on a short break with friends for 3 days and felt great without knowing why exactly. After I relapsed after this point I started to feel the difference and found this site thankfully near the end of 2017 and became hell bent on breaking this addiction that had pretty much fucked up my prime years in life. I moved out January 2018 which was a great motivator through all this time I have been addicted to not just giving up masturbation/porn but self improvement in every aspect of life. I now take cold showers, mediatate, see/call friends regularly, bring people together etc. I always did exercise for years but never like I do now it used to take all my willpower just to do a session then I would be wiped out for the day now I exercise 1st thing if I can and love every workout whether its lifting or martial arts. Ive seen and been with more women in this last 22 months than I had in my life before 2018 and also understand them and attract them much easier. Its not about being an A hole or any of that BS its about confidence and people skills. I have had some money struggles huge ones and other issues in this time and where as in the past I couldn't handle anything I handled all these problems with determination and confidence and now I'm finally not struggling with money and am going to go back to college and pursue a true career as a councillor helping people turn their lives around like I did with mine. And the catalyst the thing that started everything was discovering this site and learning all my bad habits and terrible confidence/anxiety issues could be overcome. But I feel like if anything if I come to this site now it almost sets me back as it puts these things in my mind when to be honest now it never really enters my mind. If anyone wants to read my full story I did a journal on here which actually helped me stop relapsing and started taking things seriously so anyone out there looking to beat this thing starting your own journal on here will definetly help and keep you accountable. Thank you everyone life is beautiful and never forget you are in control of it! You can do this!! I was nothing special and I have achieved so much in such a relatively short amount of time more than I ever achieved in 13 years of pathetic addiction Good luck to you all my best wishes and love and stay strong always!!