Every success makes me feel worse about myself

You definitely deserve the success that you have built for yourself.

A good way of helping re-evaluating your successes and goals is to "get out of your head".

Taking a walk through a park without a phone, music, or anything but my clothes and shoes is a good way I find of slowing down my thinking and helping me align my goals and mindset to the next step.

Find what works for you!

 

This sounds like something you could explore in therapy. If you do not have any additional issues it may only take a few sessions, although that is just a guess of course.

 

I cannot disagree. I have not been helped after even intensive therapy. But I try not to let my personal experience stop me from mentioning it as an option to others. It seems to help some. Maybe it is about the competence of the therapist. Idk...

 

I always worried about therapy helping me out, but the major thing I have always found about therapy is that they cannot guide you through the process of what is on your mind 100%. They can only give you the knowledge and advice that they have to process it yourself.

A bit of a personal experience, I was agitated and reactively angry with my family over the constant arguing and yelling that was happening that I kept internalizing most of my problems. I was sent to therapy for helping with anger management, but I found I never had any of my problems solved until I began finding proper ways to apply the advice that was given to me. Granted, it isn't perfect, but it has helped me handle my anger, depression and has even brought me a more optimistic view on matters.

I don't know if this advice will help you out on figuring out a new perspective to the problems, but I do wish you well and the best on your journey!

 

That is terrific! I am really glad you have got so much out of it.

Thanks buddy. Best wishes.