I see people during the day, but I still feel very lonely. I'm away from my parents, from my friends, from the girl I like (and I don't even think she likes me back), and it makes me feel so bad and anxious. I don't wan't to contaminate them with my bad state, so I stay far from everything.I feel it's better if I stay alone sometimes, but it's hard to come back. I have to study a lot, and when I try to play something or do something I like, I can't enjoy it anymore because I feel there's work to do, and I shouldn't be doing that. I've tried to change my routine, do exercise, read... Things are losing the taste, the smell, the colors... And it makes me feel worse.