Exhausted...

Life is utterly hard when you want to achieve something, you think you can do it at the very first time, but only the beginning is enough to destroy your whole determination. I have to admit that I am a weak person, especially when it comes to communication with people, every time when I have to face with the people that I am not familiar with I was paniced, and that's the moment I am going to relapse. And this kind of discomfort makes me more unwilling to contact with people, that's a vicious circle, I feel useless and hopeless, also exhausted, and donot know how to work it out.