Dave.parker
Fapstronaut
Hi everyone. I am 26 years old and addicted to this since past 10 years. I was very addictive when i was in my teens and early 20's but i somehow managed to control it. Like, i used to do it twice or thrice everyday during my teens but now it's once or maybe twice a week. The goal now is to drop that too because i think it's messing up my mind.
I am at the phase where fantasies are the only thing i can relate to when i get the urge to masturbate. Like, my body don't even want to do it but the scenes or foreplay's i watched previously are stuck in my mind so deep that it tempt's me so much that it overpowers me.
I think i evev lost real sexual values that a person posses, like how and what am i gonna do when i have sex with an actual person? All i know is this crap that i filled my head with since the past ten years!
On top of that i don't have any friends at all in my life, no girlfriend either never had one. Not even online friends lol. So, u guys can figure out how difficult it must be for me, i mean the only people i am important to rn are my parents which makes me feel very lonely but still staying busy isn't a problem for me on weekdays it's the weekend's or holidays that gets me. I exercise regularly btw try to physically exhaust myself as much as i can but like i told my triggers are the weekend or holidays and when i am alone or when i wake up too early in the morning with the morning wood problem.
The fact that i hate the most is all that porn videos and fantasies that they create in those movies are not even close to how actual foreplay between a couple takes place IMO. (Correct me if i am wrong) and i still watch it knowing all this information, this scares me too death that how messed up my mind had gotten.
Somehow came to know about this website though, thought i must give it a try.
HELP ME.PLEASE!
I am at the phase where fantasies are the only thing i can relate to when i get the urge to masturbate. Like, my body don't even want to do it but the scenes or foreplay's i watched previously are stuck in my mind so deep that it tempt's me so much that it overpowers me.
I think i evev lost real sexual values that a person posses, like how and what am i gonna do when i have sex with an actual person? All i know is this crap that i filled my head with since the past ten years!
On top of that i don't have any friends at all in my life, no girlfriend either never had one. Not even online friends lol. So, u guys can figure out how difficult it must be for me, i mean the only people i am important to rn are my parents which makes me feel very lonely but still staying busy isn't a problem for me on weekdays it's the weekend's or holidays that gets me. I exercise regularly btw try to physically exhaust myself as much as i can but like i told my triggers are the weekend or holidays and when i am alone or when i wake up too early in the morning with the morning wood problem.
The fact that i hate the most is all that porn videos and fantasies that they create in those movies are not even close to how actual foreplay between a couple takes place IMO. (Correct me if i am wrong) and i still watch it knowing all this information, this scares me too death that how messed up my mind had gotten.
Somehow came to know about this website though, thought i must give it a try.
HELP ME.PLEASE!