Extreme addiction.

Hello guys! Like all of you here i was motivated to stop fap and porn. Reached 1 year. Could not overcome my addiction. Here is my mistake. When i got great urge, i didn`t fap but was watching porn in a frenzy for the whole day. This shit happened to me every 2-3 months in that year. THIS DID NOT HELP TO GET BENEFITS. I RELAPSED and returned to masturbation with fantasy for half a year. And was watching porn from time to time.

Only now it`s obvious that when the urge is so great and you can`t hold yourself. Just jerk off with your eyes open, seeing what shit you are doing, no fantasy dreaming, no pictures, no porn, nothing except cruel agony of your dry penis and hand. You will get release and it won`t fuck up your brain. More to it, you`ll get the opportunity to hold on.

But remember. FAP IS BAD, FANTASY IS WORSE, BUT PORN WILL ERASE ALL YOUR SUPERPOWERS AND ALL THAT RECOVERY WILL BE FOR NOTHING.

 

I complied myself to believe during such sessions that it could strengthen my WILLPOWER. This was so ridiculous.

 

If you can`t get hard without ignition of imagination then remember for a mere second face of some cutie. For healthy erection it should be enough and won`t fuck up brain as bad as fullblown naughty fantasy.

But it`s just in the direst situation to hold on your march without porn. FAP IS BAD FOR NEUROPLASTICITY AS WELL AS FANTASY.

 

On 40th day at long last got healthy morning wood. I sure had it during PMO too, but now it`s just incredibly stronger and vigorous. And bigger ofcourse because of the increased blood blow. Not sure how abstaining from sexual fantasies and masturbation affect that, but i guess it`s something about neuronal regulation.