Extreme Positivity

Random Musing: It's kind of crazy how frequently I have extreme positivity about being successful "this time" and how I can easily make this happen, all the while knowing in the back of my mind that I'll be tempted later when I'm all alone and tired and have a large chance of just searching an innocent search. We all know how that goes, just a random woman's name on google images, it's completely harmless right? Until the search changes to add erotic language, mature search filter gets turned off and then I find myself an hour and a half later doing something I'll despise several minutes afterwards. This cycle has been ludicrous.