Facing very real/scary consequences

So i am of a faith that places lots of pressure for its young men to serve as a missionaries. Which is fine for me because ive always wanted and been willing to do so. The issue is that I have to solve my problem with PMO before i can go which is understandble. Whats causing my stress is that my missionary service will last two years and i can only differ my college acceptance and scholarships for up to three. So basically my addiction to PMO is making me run out of time for valuable opportunities... Quitting PMO is hard enouph and i would think that this extra pressure would help me quit but in reality its just making me more stressed. I would like advice but not about religion or college, rather about how to calm down and make sure im handling my addiction correctly and how to face my problem. Thanks

 

Yup Im mormon. The reason is that LDS (mormon)members are supposed to hold themselves to certain standards and in this case it is the Law of chastity which deals with sexual purity. Especially those who are representing the church such as missionaries should be able to meet these standards. We dont have to be perfect of course but i can understand why i need get hold of any sort of addiction before serving a two year mission. Even if its just for my own conscience. I hope that answers your question and thanks for taking the time to reply to my post.

 

Hey man thanks so much! I was really surprised to see another member who can relate, so i really appreciate you taking the time to reply to my post. Ive talked with my bishop several times which is cool because the thought of telling anyone used to scare me to death but now im embracing being honest and candid. I am making progress but sometimes i lack faith that i can actually overcome this for good. I want the problem to just go away when in reality it will take time. Thanks again man!