I relapsed, as usual. The reason I relapsed was to be involved in the chain (relapse cycle). I can only come in two weeks and that happens when my brain becomes insensitive to pleasure and I get triggered after two weeks. I used to resist, but for some reason, now I seem to have lost all my strength, and my desire has diminished. I fell, I know it's bad to be destroyed, but I still keep destroying myself...
Yeah, that cycle can be really vicious. Just don't give up. We may relapse, that can be part of the process, just one thing we can't do and that is giving up hope that we can exit that cycle and heal, recover. Wish you strength, keep going, keep growing.
Check out my story at Am I a Sissy?? (Actually a good story with happy ending, trust me, read the whole thing)
Don't be harsh on yourself. I kept failing at 10-14 days for a long time before i started completing longer streaks. The goal is to become a little bit stronger every day. Don't rely on will power alone. You need to heal your wounds and replace them with love. .
Hello friend. It seems you are struggling to overcome a hump in your journey. I had this issue a long time ago as well. Think about what might cause the insensitivity. Maybe it is too much free time or boredom? Have you considered to meditate at times where you feel the insensitivity? It can clear your mind and help you go in the right direction especially when you open up the chakras. Whatever you decide to do, I wish you luck. There are many resources and wonderful people here who can help if you need it.
It's a very hard struggle, for all of us. But you are strong enough to start this thread and acknowledge you did the wrong thing. I see that as something very powerful. Like the comment above, I also would like to know if you have too much free time. For me it really helped when I started to do something useful. All the best man, we do this together!
I'd say my day is full. I have a certain routine in the morning, I take care of my classes until noon, then I go to bodybuilding training, then I usually do my hobbies or my classes and go to sleep early. Of course, it's hard for me to do these things, I'm hard at discipline, sometimes I lose a lot of time.
You aren’t alone in this. Even I suffer from this sissy fetish stuff and relapse time and again a few days into NoPMO. Just recently had a relapse after 3 weeks of NoPMO.
I nicknamed that the Spiral because your brain always tries to go after the super high after the first relapse, and the body is like "No, that was a one time thing." Centering yourself is a true test of character. Keep super busy and don't slow down while the brain fog wears away.
