Falling down and getting back up

Oh very been here before. I’m 27 and had been a porn addict for the last 7-8 years. Unlike most I was a let comer to the PMO world and I had been an addict since. I have tried nofap before multiple times and my Kong’s streak hasn’t been more than 30 days. I have on myself, always depressed and don’t have energy to do anything productive or put remotely on my way to achieving my goals. After late night cries, and masterubation two days ago decided to just sleep with looking at my phone. And yesterday as well. So I have been no PMO for two days and I feel good about it.
However,
Each time I start my free streak I have an awful guilt occupy me about the 7 valuable years I wasted and all the opportunities I burned. It almost seems like my life is over and there is no meaning to anything I do.
However, I just want to be free of this and I know I can. I’m here again.