Falling in love with a porn actress

I have heard of other people who got "stuck" one performer, so you are not alone brother.

 

I would assume it's just fantasy creating sensations in your mind with the "special" actress.

 

While I never went as far as you, I get it. I must've viewed and searched for the same actress thousands of times, and would even say I loved her while viewing her videos.
Pretty sad, but that's where the addiction takes you.

 

It's understandable as we become 'intimate' with these actresses... and another aspect of our obsessive behaviour...
Beware my friend

 

Bro first of all delete all mental and physical (I.e your digital video) negative thoughts and become a real Fapstrounaut
Stop thinking about it and go to you tube and search
NoFap motivational
Good luck

 

I'd like to say that what you are saying isn't so farfetched because I would regularly go through phases of extreme interest with different performers- though I never believed I had anything other than carnal desires for them. I would say what you are going through is driven by two things; knowing that the said performer is unobtainable and the fact that you subconsciously know that pornography at it's core is a forbidden fruit.

Those women get paid obscene amounts of money to look better than normal women and portray funner, more intimate sex than normal women. Stay away from it at all costs and allow it to leave your personal life. That's where I'm currently at as well.

 

We all fall in love with actresses bro. I've fallen in love with many actresses: there's Jessica Stroup, Haley Lu Richardson, Zoey Deutch (not porn actresses, but the principle is the same). Does that mean I should rewatch a single movie just to see them? Or do I need to accept the ending of the movie and move on? You can't let loving an actress stop you from moving in the right direction. Just as I need to wake up at the ending of a movie starring these actresses, you need to wake up as well. It's just not going to happen. Accept it. You're going to fall in love with a real, beautiful woman someday who isn't out of reach. Just don't let these thoughts draw you back into an evil habit.

 

I have 3 or 4 habits and scenes i would always go back to when relapse

 

I think you see where this is going, so the sooner you cut her out of your life the better. I have a feeling you will not waste a moment of time regretting your decision.

 

Get rid of all your other material before cutting ties with your favorite. I've tried and failed the same thing several times, it'll lead to a compulsion to collect everything again as you've seen. Once you're able to accept the removal of the lesser content you can begin to tackle the root of the issue. I'd advise doing it almost like a March Madness bracket - depending how much content you have set a daily goal to get rid of 'x' amount by the week's end. Don't add to it, don't sort it, just make the cut of what you don't really want.

Once you're down to your favorite actress or folder of material you must replace it with something first, whether that's spiritual, physical, or social activity is totally up to you. But the moment you delete it all you'll feel great - for a time - but if there is nothing in your life to replace the time and energy spent you're going to hit a wall, hard and fast. This is why cold turkey fails for so many people in so many ways. You cannot have an empty hole in your habits or life, it must be replaced or traded out first.

Besides, you don't chop down a tree by excavating the roots first, you trim the branches, then the trunk, until you're left with the deeply set stump and roots. Get rid of the easy stuff, get to the roots last, then you'll know you're in the clear.