FAP computer back in the house...

I bought this computer for fap only purposes months ago. Its so weird having it back in the house knowing that this machine helped in destroying not just my relationships with people,but myself in general.

Its sad and depressing to think what pmo did to me. I hope this sadness is enough for me to never give in again. I have gone 22 days and then 12 More.

This computer is now for research, job seeking, and improving my life. Im sorry to those i destroyed...just know that i was just destroying myself.

 

They are definitely demons at play thats for sure. I never thought id be able to use this computer for normal web surfing. I have made it without looking at any porn sites. It easy to do this when i remember how this addiction destroyed my life and my relationship with my partner. Its not to say this was the only thing that made us come to an end, but it was one of many. Remembering this, makes me RESENT the hell out of these demons, and a part of me just cant anymore, perhaps because of the heartbreak i guess.

Thank you demons for breaking my heart and destroying the true love of my life.

I hope you are all happy and laughing at me now, you got what you wanted, leave me alone already, you may have won and defeated me, but im not going to lay there forever. Im getting up, and just walking away, tears running down my face. I guess this is what it took for me to end the addiction, I hope it doesnt happen to anyone else, its just not worth it. FIND LOVE AND DONT LET IT GO!!!!!!!!Save yourself! Save the ones you love.