Hi all,
I'm a long time reader, well not even much (1 year ) but with ED problems for so many years, yes, it sucks.
I just want to add some aspects of this problems that happened to me and that maybe would be familiar to some of you reading that didn't find in other threads.
Going to the past with my memories I can say my problem started noticing that I was struggling to take a pee easily: I initially thought that maybe I was going to the toilette without having a big need, then I thought it might depends on feeling embarrassed to do it quickly in public toilet, school and so on:
Btw At that time my erections were still glorious:
then during my fap routine, 3 or for or 5 times taking even hours edging and fapping I started to feel some pain all along my penis; let me underline that was a kind of pleasant penis in my ignorance, cause I like everything is rough and I thought it was due to those long fap sessions: I would say i was fapping for 5 hours per day/night.
Another thing to underline: I was fapping more on fantasies than on porn, let's say (70/30)
During that period with painful erections, I started lately to feel like one of my testicle was rising up in my body creating disconfort cause I was not able to vigorousily fap without hitting the testicle.
I started then to hold the penis harder and harder, but I was puzzled about that testicle stuff.
I used to be very responsive to everything and I was getting hard even laying a book over my pants, and after masturbation or sex I was semi hard and ready to get hard within some seconds.
Well, after that period, the next problem was feeling the base of my penis less fuller than before, I felt like the base, from the perineum to the beginning of the shaft othe penis, was getting dried, was getting empty, while the rest of the penis had the same shape and size, but try to imagine the middle and ending part of the penis larger than the base, while it should always be the opposite: the base much larger.
Anyway at that time I could not figure out why and the unique moments when my penis was like it has always been was when I was erect and the best way to test it was masturbating, so I was masturbating even more and I guess my nightmare started there.
One day I was masturbating as everyday, meaning hours and hours on fantasies and on porn, but I had some problems getting fully hard: I thought that problem was I was getting bored to those few porn videos I had at that time, cause it was not the era of free porn everywhere, and those were my first very long videos I was wasting day after day: well one day after 2 faps with 2 ejaculations in a row with the second one with penis erect at 60% let s say....I felt my penis completely dead: it got shriveled to less than half my usual penis when flacid; i felt the base of the penis like empty, just covered with the skin, like a shopping bag with nothing inside:
to give an example: take an air baloon: the part you make the knot, well that part was my base and the rest of the baloon was my penis, but shriveled.
It's like a sponge where you wet a part and the other part u keep it dried: one it get swalled depending on how much u wet it: the other part is tight.
Well I got panicked, also because as I mentioned above, I never had moments where my penis was not active for a new erection, and I m also a shower, meaning that my flaccid penis is long and large and when getting erect it changes of few cm, but that time my penis got completely shriveled like a child penis.
I also was not adult enough to understand the shit that happened, so I started to try to fap, tried to fantasy, to watch porn, but nothing: I got erection of 30% 40% 50% max.
That night I slept 2 hours, and no morning wood, first time in my life, and my penis, was completely dead, small, so I tried again to masturbate, but it was a nightmare: nothing was like before.
Anxiety, fear and all the worst things started to make that problem even heavier.
In next posts I ll continue how the things went
I'm a long time reader, well not even much (1 year ) but with ED problems for so many years, yes, it sucks.
I just want to add some aspects of this problems that happened to me and that maybe would be familiar to some of you reading that didn't find in other threads.
Going to the past with my memories I can say my problem started noticing that I was struggling to take a pee easily: I initially thought that maybe I was going to the toilette without having a big need, then I thought it might depends on feeling embarrassed to do it quickly in public toilet, school and so on:
Btw At that time my erections were still glorious:
then during my fap routine, 3 or for or 5 times taking even hours edging and fapping I started to feel some pain all along my penis; let me underline that was a kind of pleasant penis in my ignorance, cause I like everything is rough and I thought it was due to those long fap sessions: I would say i was fapping for 5 hours per day/night.
Another thing to underline: I was fapping more on fantasies than on porn, let's say (70/30)
During that period with painful erections, I started lately to feel like one of my testicle was rising up in my body creating disconfort cause I was not able to vigorousily fap without hitting the testicle.
I started then to hold the penis harder and harder, but I was puzzled about that testicle stuff.
I used to be very responsive to everything and I was getting hard even laying a book over my pants, and after masturbation or sex I was semi hard and ready to get hard within some seconds.
Well, after that period, the next problem was feeling the base of my penis less fuller than before, I felt like the base, from the perineum to the beginning of the shaft othe penis, was getting dried, was getting empty, while the rest of the penis had the same shape and size, but try to imagine the middle and ending part of the penis larger than the base, while it should always be the opposite: the base much larger.
Anyway at that time I could not figure out why and the unique moments when my penis was like it has always been was when I was erect and the best way to test it was masturbating, so I was masturbating even more and I guess my nightmare started there.
One day I was masturbating as everyday, meaning hours and hours on fantasies and on porn, but I had some problems getting fully hard: I thought that problem was I was getting bored to those few porn videos I had at that time, cause it was not the era of free porn everywhere, and those were my first very long videos I was wasting day after day: well one day after 2 faps with 2 ejaculations in a row with the second one with penis erect at 60% let s say....I felt my penis completely dead: it got shriveled to less than half my usual penis when flacid; i felt the base of the penis like empty, just covered with the skin, like a shopping bag with nothing inside:
to give an example: take an air baloon: the part you make the knot, well that part was my base and the rest of the baloon was my penis, but shriveled.
It's like a sponge where you wet a part and the other part u keep it dried: one it get swalled depending on how much u wet it: the other part is tight.
Well I got panicked, also because as I mentioned above, I never had moments where my penis was not active for a new erection, and I m also a shower, meaning that my flaccid penis is long and large and when getting erect it changes of few cm, but that time my penis got completely shriveled like a child penis.
I also was not adult enough to understand the shit that happened, so I started to try to fap, tried to fantasy, to watch porn, but nothing: I got erection of 30% 40% 50% max.
That night I slept 2 hours, and no morning wood, first time in my life, and my penis, was completely dead, small, so I tried again to masturbate, but it was a nightmare: nothing was like before.
Anxiety, fear and all the worst things started to make that problem even heavier.
In next posts I ll continue how the things went
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