Fapped to a friend

Having a crush on a girl and then wanking while thinking about her sounds pretty normal to me.

It's called falling in love. Maybe puppy love? Nevertheless, it is 100pct natural for friends to fall in love.

Unrequited love is a problem. But, you aren't even sure if it's unrequited.

 

Sounds like love to me. We love with our hearts, not our brains. “Thinking” about how she doesn’t fit your image of a partner is using the ole brain. Listen to your dick, it’s trying to tell you something.
… and don’t feel bad about having desire for this woman

 

It's been said that "opposites attract."

Many think that the reason for this is that the person your attracted to has qualities you lack. As an example, someone might be attracted to a person that makes decisions quickly - and they take forever to decide something. Later in the relationship, this can be the very source of conflict.

So, my advice is this: If you find her physically attractive and beat your thang as if it owes you money while thinking about her, there is no harm done. As long as you don't stalk her (and you haven't said you are or would), it's normal.

 

i've had the same issue in the past... i'd say be mindful of your feelings, listen to them they can guide you... these emotions are a cross to bear if i may say so. ... instead of fapping to her try to make something "a guy you would like to be for her" would do. that's how i would convert the energy. of course if you don't want to tell her what you did to see her reaction, that might be "funny" haha.

in your case you might be in love. as a boy it seems that sex and love are kind of mixed with each other within the brain apparently (please someone tell me if i'm wrong i beg you) so that's why i say it might be love.

hey you're just nineteen! it's ok to take risk by that i mean DON'T HURT HER and most of all have fun if you can in a way that does not prevent you to manage your small personal duties in your own life that ARE more important.

 

I don't know where the exact line between just looking at her social media and stalking is located. But, you aren't sending her endless messages, showing up at her house unexpectedly, calling her at work, etc.

So, the only problem I'd see is if you are actually masturbating while looking at her pictures online. I'm not an expert at NoFap but that sounds like a p0rn substitute.

 

You're using your friend as a porn substitute. Stop playing with your meat puppet.