ronald47ohio
New Fapstronaut
Guys. Great to have you and this forum around.
Ive been fapping since i was around 15, and thats nearly 20 years ago. I guess everyone faps. But ive been increasing the dosis ever since. Not necessarily in terms of quantity. But quality. Fapping to BDSM and transwoman Porn has been my kick since i was 20. Ive experienced a lot. I fucked and got fucked by transgenders. I escalated quite a bit. And always knew that this was somehow weird, somehow not healthy.
Since a year I have a gf. There is a tremendous connection between us, very open honest exchange of thoughts. And in the beginning the sex was amazing. She was so tuned into me, that it didnt really matter what i did. She always came. Multiple times. It was magical - because she has the ability to truely let go and because she felt so connected to me. However things changed. I changed because I did it all along to make her happy. Not so much myself. And she lost some of her magic as she realized slowly that I didnt enjoy in the same way as she did.
I think I broke her heart with this. When she realized that there are quite a few moments, when Id prefer Porn over real Sex with her. When she realized I fap on my own when she is away over guys that would like to be girls.
Im not asking myself anymore if i am straight bi or gay. Probably straight plus a little bi. Sex with men has never been of interest. Not even in the vids. However this trans thing really got me hooked. Not so much in RL (although there were a few good experiences I have to admit) but especially in VL.
Anyways. I will and want to stop porn. I want to stop having great Sex with myself and start having greater Sex with my girlfriend.
Thanks for reading and commenting, guys. Thanks for supporting.
Ive been fapping since i was around 15, and thats nearly 20 years ago. I guess everyone faps. But ive been increasing the dosis ever since. Not necessarily in terms of quantity. But quality. Fapping to BDSM and transwoman Porn has been my kick since i was 20. Ive experienced a lot. I fucked and got fucked by transgenders. I escalated quite a bit. And always knew that this was somehow weird, somehow not healthy.
Since a year I have a gf. There is a tremendous connection between us, very open honest exchange of thoughts. And in the beginning the sex was amazing. She was so tuned into me, that it didnt really matter what i did. She always came. Multiple times. It was magical - because she has the ability to truely let go and because she felt so connected to me. However things changed. I changed because I did it all along to make her happy. Not so much myself. And she lost some of her magic as she realized slowly that I didnt enjoy in the same way as she did.
I think I broke her heart with this. When she realized that there are quite a few moments, when Id prefer Porn over real Sex with her. When she realized I fap on my own when she is away over guys that would like to be girls.
Im not asking myself anymore if i am straight bi or gay. Probably straight plus a little bi. Sex with men has never been of interest. Not even in the vids. However this trans thing really got me hooked. Not so much in RL (although there were a few good experiences I have to admit) but especially in VL.
Anyways. I will and want to stop porn. I want to stop having great Sex with myself and start having greater Sex with my girlfriend.
Thanks for reading and commenting, guys. Thanks for supporting.
