Hello, My name is Gavin and I am severely addicted to PMO. I was first exposed when I was 10 and it has metastasized into a malignant growth in both my personal psyche and my relationships, especially with women. It was the worst in high school after undergoing several traumatic experiences (mostly death) combined with the onset of drug use. I reached a point where I adopted a mind-set of "I want to be a sociopath, I don't want to feel anymore" and because of that, no form of PMO was off-limits to myself. I didn't have the best time growing up, so I used PMO as a coping mechanism to deal with my anxiety, depression, PTSD, OCD etc. The content I viewed became increasingly extreme until I acted out once in public when I was 17. To this day I harbor immense regret and disgust in myself for both what viewed and what I did, though I know nobody saw me, nor did I hurt anyone else in the process but myself. PMO has infiltrated many parts of my being, but worst of all my imagination. I wish to heal and be free from this pit I've dug for myself, because if I don't extinguish this now, it will be with me for the rest of my life and I'm trying to have and house, wife, and kids eventually, but most of all I'm just trying to enjoy myself and the guilt I have from porn is a huge road-block.
Now that that's out of the way, I can talk about myself a bit. I am 19 (soon 20) and I am a University student studying Entertainment Arts and Engineering (though considering other majors like Biology, Astronomy, Music). I play guitar in a some bands with my friends and we play shows which is a big passion of mine. I love sports like basketball and soccer and I enjoy exercising, especially running. I could run a 5:40 mile my freshman year of high school and my goal is to break 5:00 one of these days. I'm just trying to figure out how to be the best me and eliminating porn is the first step!
Now that that's out of the way, I can talk about myself a bit. I am 19 (soon 20) and I am a University student studying Entertainment Arts and Engineering (though considering other majors like Biology, Astronomy, Music). I play guitar in a some bands with my friends and we play shows which is a big passion of mine. I love sports like basketball and soccer and I enjoy exercising, especially running. I could run a 5:40 mile my freshman year of high school and my goal is to break 5:00 one of these days. I'm just trying to figure out how to be the best me and eliminating porn is the first step!
