I'm 50 something days into nofap. Although that is good, for the most part, especially the first period where I flatlined and now, I feel completely and utterly depressed - I seem to have given up on life now. A week ago it was so different - I was happy, confident etc. Now, I just feel like shit, like my life is hopeless. The reason I started to fap was to try and boost my confidence and help my social anxiety. Although it has done it a bit, I now think I may have Manic depression. I seem to be constantly transitioning from high to low and I ain't even sure nofap has got anything to do with it. I don't know what to do and I feel ashamed and embarrassed to try and ask for help with any of my issues. It just feels like have so many issues. I'm tall 6"3 and decent at sports but feel as though I've become a loaner who has lost motivation for life. I always feel lonely, like I don't fit in, even when I have people around me (I never do unless I'm at college). It feels like no one apart from my family cares about me. Not even sure if I can be arsed with life anymore. Everyone else is enjoying life and I am not. Everyone else is independent at 16 and I'm so over reliant on my parents and am reluctant to grow up, even scared to grow up (partly because of my anxiety). I've tried fighting off all of these feelings, but I just can't anymore. All I want is to be happy, sociable, and eventually settle down to live a happy family life and find someone that I love. In reality, I just seem to push everyone away, not because I don't like them, but because I'm scared of what people think of me. I've just lost motivation for everything and I hope that somehow NoFap helps me to overcome these issues. I feel as though I've lost the will to live and instead put a smile on so everyone thinks I'm OK. In actual fact, I'm depressed, lonely, anxious, scared of what others think of me/will judge me like, bad in relationships, don't believe in myself and utterly depressed.