Hello all, I’ve been addicted to porn since I was approximately 12 years old, I’m now 34, and have never really given it a effort to be better about it. Until recently, I guess it just wasn’t important or something I realized was effecting me and my life. I’ve been married to my best friend for almost 11 years and we have two little girls that are amazing. About 6 years ago I ended up kissing another girl and was basically in a very bad place in my life. My wife stuck it out and we moved home and started a new life and ended up having our two daughters. About year and half ago I started spending money watching porn online and my wife ended up figuring out after i spend about 2k dollars on it. She was heartbroken, but forgave me and I went to counseling, but didn’t really fix the problem. The beginning of this year my wife started to work out and get super healthy and I have encouraged her and supported her and she is doing a great job at it. She ended up hanging out with a friend from work who just recently got a divorce and is currently having an affair. About s month ago, my wife came to me and said she wants a divorce and is tired of me and doesn’t want to deal with me after all the hurt I have caused her. Everything she said was very reasonable and I deserve it, but it was the most crushing thing in the world. We have been battling the last 3-4 weeks and it’s been so hard to be here and to deal with it but I have to be strong for my two daughters. My wife and I both grew up Christians and I have very much in the past month tried to get my life back on track, we have been going to church, i joined a SA group, I’m meeting with a friend from church to deal with my issues, because I know if nothing else I have to try and get my life together so I can be the dad to my girls that I need to be. About a week and half ago my wife stopped wearing her wedding ring, and two nights ago stopped sleeping in the bed with me. She now sleeps downstairs on the sofa. I just feel so lonely and afraid of what is going to happen. I love her, my kids, and our life, but I need to get things back in line if I’m going to have any chance at being the type of dad to my daughters. I just am having a very down day, and needed to vent about how much this addiction has killed me and my family. I’m hoping and praying that she finds someway to forgive me and work on things for our family.