feel like a teenager want to party 24/7

Hi
Im 37 and back in the day in my teens and early 20s I partied a lot 5 days a week.Later on as I got older and deep into NOFAp I became isolated and didnt go out.
Im on day 23 of NOFAP and the only thing I can think of is the next party...I dont think about my profesional goals like I used to Im not as focus I dont actively look for a job.
Somehow NOFAP kept me undercontrol cause Im a ver immature guy.
I feel confused cause everything I read of benefits was guys commenting on how productive they were with NOFAP,how they were able to work, multitask workout in the gym and everything.
My guess is NOFAP not necesarily brings those qualities,it simply brings back whoever you truly were before falling in PMO.
And I was an inmature lazy teenager without goals who enjoyed party 24/7 who didnt care about future,and lived carpe diem without takin life seriously.thinking about girls 24/7
And Im starting to feel that way.
Im alarmed cause its a critical moment in my profesional career and I cant be only thinking about wheres the next big party...Anybody can relate?
Im not going to relapse for that reason cause this reboot is very important to me but I just cant find a way to do something productive.All I do is chat and try to find girls and research about clubs. Becuase of PMO Im stuck in my teens.
I didnt really mature like everybody else around me Ive been sedated with PMO for 20 years and now Ive awaken to the place where I fell asleed..18-20 year old.
I called my best friend to go out to party but he is so deep into PMO that he even refuses meeting with girls,Ive seen him less and less over the years even though we live close. Ive talked him into NOFAP and how beneficial it is cause he's had mild depression the last 3 years but he wont listen...I dont think hes ever gonna get out of it.
So I dont know..when I go out I have to lie about my age cause how can I kiss a 20 year old girl if Im her father age..thank God I look younger so nobody really thinks Im that old but i feel a bit ridicolous around lil kids pretending Im 20,even though it works.
At this point I dont feel confortable around women my age they are too old for me in their lifestyle their mindset and their look.