Feeling alone

Hey there,

I'm about 2 weeks into my reboot.
Leading up to this point, I've felt great with the actions I've taken to better myself and to stop watching porn, and not smoke Marijuana (my biggest vices)

Although now, I'm feeling depressed..
I want to talk to my girlfriend about it but I'm scared she won't understand, I feel ashamed by it.. Where do I even start? Do I tell her how bad it's gotten? That sometimes I preferred porn over being intimate with her?

It's something I've wanted to say to her for a long time but I can't bring myself to do it, maybe it's pride or stupidity.. 'Cause I know she wants the best for me.

Been feeling like a real coward lately..

I'm not sure what to do but I just wanted to put this out in the universe.

Thnx for reading it

- Protest

 

Hey @Burrich1
Thanks for the words of encouragement.

I don't think she'd leave me, she would want to help. I think it has more to do with me than her. it's just embarrassing to bring up, the fear of judgement and/or rejection is what scares me.

But you're right, I need to sit her down and talk to her about it, I'm gonna see her later on today and I'm gonna do it.

Thanks again for reaching out brother.

All the best

- protest

 

*UPDATE*

Hey good people,

I finally spoke with my woman about my PMO addiction, and it helped tremendously.
We talked for over 3 hours and she actually opened up to me about some problems she's dealing with in her life, it brought us closer and it felt so good to get this secret off my chest.

I have to thank the people and stories in this community, they gave me the strength to do it.
I feel like I can beat this thing, one day at a time.

With that said, I've had major urges to watch porn today but I keep telling myself "I love who I am when I'm not watching porn" and that helps for now.

If anyone has any tips on how I can channel this feeling, please send them my way.

Thanks for reading this everyone, stay strong.

-ProtestThePMO