Been feeling so good physically since I began NoFap 5 days ago. But today I am feeling so down in the dumps. I keep finding reasons to feel sad (I miss my family that lives out of state, I don't spend enough time with my woman, etc. ) and I am wondering if this is relating to no masturbating? Overall, things in my life are going very well. I just can't seem to shake the blues. I don't necessarily want to watch porn, I jut keep drifting off mentally to a place of sadness. I think in the past, this is definitely a time I would have turned to porn. I just want to place my thoughts here and I wonder if others have had this experience during the first week of rebooting...
I can understand why you are on a major downer.
Much of this is because you are far from family, distant from your girlfriend, and alone.
This would make anyone feel sad.
Not having porn in your life is undoubtedly another reason for your melancholy.
We are giving up porn because of the negative effects it has had in our lives.
Yet, at the same time, we must be honest and admit that we've always loved porn.
Porn has always been there for us when we've felt bad, and it has made us feel better for a time.
Porn has been a sure companion when we've been lonesome.
It's been like an old friend, but a deceitful one.
Now, you've lost that, and you are missing it.
This is almost a kind of mourning over the loss of someone or something which has been a big part of your life.
Everyone feels down at times.
Without the world of porn where you can escape, you are left without any place to go, and you must face these bad feelings.
You don't have porn anymore to numb them.
You feel these things fully, perhaps for the first time, and must find a way to deal with them.
I know what it is like to be lonesome. I myself have no family, and I've never had a girlfriend.
I've gotten accustomed to being alone over the years, but it often does bother me, especially this time of year.
That, in large part, has been one of the reasons for my porn use. Porn filled a void.
I don't have that anymore either.
