feeling dejected

Well first of all, i confess that it is a problem. i am a addict and trying to abstain from these nasty things. i am now 28 and had this problem since 18. Now since 21-12-2013, i had a very a desire of following the positives (meditation, excessise). i undertook almost daily 1Hr of meditation. With regular breaks the problem kept coming up. But since last 10 days the desires reduced and there was no PM. But today i felt there is nothing to do, so spent time in that same old thing for an Hr or so. Getting to culmination, i deleted everything from mobile and p.c.

There is one part of brain which says that no no its not good for you, you have the resolution set, but there is another part of the same brain which wants see those dots of picles again and again. Sometimes the good part is active and sometime the bad part is active.

Also there are certain days in which i feel huge amount of energy and i do not know how to deal with it. Please guide in this problem.

Another issue is how to develop a realistic time table. Is time table really necessary? according to this post,

http://www.nofap.org/forum/showthread.php?2831-Stop-and-STAY-stopped

Abstaining is the only solution,

thank you reading this post.

recovering addict