I just wanted to share my feelings about something. I just bumped into someone I know and it’s left me feeling down. I know I will come out of it and it’s not a mindset I want, I have to be honest though. I haven’t seen this person for a while and they always did well for themselves and they are now in a really good place, got a beautiful family, got an amazing career and just got a new job with a gigantic salary, just got a top of the range new car, he is healthy and in shape, just about to buy another property. It really makes me compare myself, I’ve wasted most of my life so far with addiction, PMO, alcohol, drugs, gambling, escorts, food and gaming. I’ve been in recovery for a number of years and don’t drink, drug, gamble or use escorts anymore. As of late I’m free of PMO for nearly two weeks. I just needed to express that it made me feel so inferior and shame about my life. I know I should feel happy for him but instead it makes he feel embarrassed about my own situation. This would be a classic trigger for me to lose myself in PMO and not face reality and go on that downward spiral but I intend on staying strong. I know I shouldn’t feel like this and but sharing plus doing something constructive after will help me move my mind in a more positive direction. I know I will build my self esteem over the next few years and I will be free of the shame and emptiness that come from PMO. Thanks guys.