Feeling HORNY

Now I am a little drunk right now and I want to do nothing but have sex right now. I am trying so hard to be abstinent and wait for my future wife to claim her temple of my body. Now I am not a virgin, I have had sex probably hundreds of times, I made this commitment to not have sex until marriage. But fuck is it hard and I don't even want to approach girls anymore because I would just approach in aims to sleep with them. But I have lonely nights every night in bed and my hand is my only company. I want to chop it off. Pray for me guys. I want to stick my d*** inside someone fuck I might just go buy a escort but I know I will feel TERRIBLE after and it will not fix the problem. But I really want to have sex. Maybe its jus the liquor talking but I want that feeling again, its been since march since I last had sex and it sucks realizing it was my last sex until i say the words "I DO". my rant for the night gonna pray then sleep.