I have a strange anxious/excited feeling. I have actually not had a craving to watch or use porn today, but I'm worried this feeling could lead me to it. I feel like it's growing pains; I'm finally expanding in a way I'm meant to. My life is in a lot of flux now: I'm at about 11 months and 12 days without alcohol. I'm studying for the LSAT. And I just gave up porn and coffee. My life is clearly heading in the right direction, but there's a trepidation that goes with that. I'm getting better at handling good feelings. I know that this will pass, but I kind of want to go back to feeling balanced. And historically, PMO was a way to calm me down. However, I don't want to lose the progress I've made or use that disgusting habit anymore. I'm asking for help, but also venting. This forum has been a lifesaver for me.