Feeling like I lost a best friend or pet

its gone now, but a couple of days ago (day 8 of 9 of my reboot) I kept getting this dispaired feeling about my old habits. the feeling was very similar to losing a close friend, or breaking up with a girl or boyfriend...or losing a pet. You get the point. But the thing I had lost was PMO! It's like my heart broke a little over it.

It was very strange because it isn't like I miss it outside of getting an urge or fantasy. I wanted it to go away for so long, and it's finally gone away...but I was sad about it for some reason. It's over now but I'm curious to hear if anyone else experienced something similar.

 

Thanks! It's been a while since I looked at YBOP. I should read up on the latest I guess