We all have this feeling of being lost, but you should not fall in the trap of P, it was designed so you will feel worst day after, then you will ask for more pmo to release the pain but actually it will just make you more depressed untill you reach a point of hopeless, P is something unnatural which lead us to loose our nature as human being, and if you keep yourself a slve for it you will be a weak person and no one will be here for you, so the point is YOU and ONLY YOU have the key to brat this trap of P, never think about suicide because you have been created for a Purpouse, you are a sophisticated creature, you can achieve so many things, you can make a lot of people happier, just use your potential bro !