I just have this pervasive feeling of isolation and loneliness. I do have friends, I hang out with them regularly, but then I come home where I live by myself, and I'm just... by myself. I've only had a few dates in the past couple years, and most have never gone past the first or second date. I just kind of feel like I'm treading water. Like even though I have friends, I only really seem them at work, or when we decide to all get together, and then I don't really talk to them outside of that. I don't really have what I could consider a best friend - someone I can just chat with every day about anything. I dunno. Maybe I'm just being silly and dumb.