Feeling no emotions or empathy...

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by D0M4, Dec 29, 2018.

  1. D0M4

    D0M4 Fapstronaut

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    Hi fellow Fapstronauts.

    It has been a long time since I've posted anything here.Nearly a year.A lot has changed for that year.Except one thing.You guessed it.Porn.
    When I first started NoFap it helped me for awhile,it seemed like I was taking back my life.And I did,for a short while.And then relapses..shitload of them.I lost all motivation.Anything I do,I just do...like a machine..if that makes sense.And even the basic moves like picking a spoon are...I can't explain that...I start to feel dizzy for some reason. Especially when I'm on a 4-5 day "streak"...I just need that "fix" and after some time I feel "normal" again...I feel like cold hearted asshole...and I'm not that...I feel hollow and I don't know...
    Please help me.
     
    Last edited: Dec 29, 2018
  2. TantusJulius

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    Strengthen your prefrontal cortex. Reading aloud, reading tongue twisters + doing mental math calculations in your head should help with your Will. Do them every morning, and night, or when you feel urges. If you reading anything on websites read them aloud too, or if you writing anything too. These should help preventing relapses.

    "Secrets of mental math..", good book to learn calculations.

    I hope others can give you other tips too.
     
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  3. D0M4

    D0M4 Fapstronaut

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    Thank you for this.You can't even comprehend how much does this support means right now
     
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  4. KeepGoingStayStrong!

    KeepGoingStayStrong! Fapstronaut

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    Hey bro
    I cant feel a single thing anymore, can this be fixed?
     
  5. Mattew

    Mattew Fapstronaut

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    Basically that's how i felt for all my life.

    But i'm not expecting 200 days of nofap to drastically change that, maybe some years...
     
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  6. D0M4

    D0M4 Fapstronaut

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    It's sad.
     
  7. Mattew

    Mattew Fapstronaut

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    Yes, porn is a bitch.
     
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  8. KeepGoingStayStrong!

    KeepGoingStayStrong! Fapstronaut

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    Bro this anxiety and feeling nothing is killing me..
     
  9. Amphibian

    Amphibian Moderator Assistant Staff Member Moderator Assistant

    Hey my friend, you just wrote my exact story. I started nofap a bit over a year ago, and had some immediate success doing just standard mode, but hit a wall since I was pornifying my sexual experiences.

    In late spring of this year I was able to do hard mode for almost 4 full months, but started having sex again before I fully re-booted. I eventually slipped back into masturbation and porn, and I crashed HARD. By late mid November I was having some huge binges and struggled to get past a few days.

    BUT I was determined NOT TO QUIT. Every time I relapsed I cut out more and more triggers, ie social media and other stuff that I knew would lead me down to relapsing. I was determined to do no peaking whatsoever, and not entertain any sexual thoughts.

    And it's worked thus far. I'm now back to my second longest streak of hard mode, a bit over a solid month, but this time also pretty much monk mode too.

    I get where you were at, man. This fall was brutal. I was just determined not to give up and give in. I tried to learn and take note of every time I slipped up and alter my behavior in some way, and eventually the ball started rolling again.
     
  10. Mattew

    Mattew Fapstronaut

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    You're probably on withdrawal symptoms.
    How many days have you been on nofap?
     
  11. D0M4

    D0M4 Fapstronaut

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    Thank you man.I have to take control of my emotions and urges.After I lost myself,mentally and physically I know what is the cause.There's a wall behind me and I got nowhere to go but forward.Support means a lot.Thank you.
     
  12. D0M4

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    Same here buddy.I just meditated and it helped me a little.
     
  13. Gradually it does get better, I used to be the numbest guy on these forums believe me. I have been in and out of flatlines since late 2012. Things do get better. It takes a whole lot of perseverance and changing your lifestyle and most importantly time but you’ll notice it.

    I still feel like I have another half a year maybe a year to optimum recovery. This won’t happen overnight, hang in there!
     
  14. Amphibian

    Amphibian Moderator Assistant Staff Member Moderator Assistant

    I'll also throw this out too in case it's applicable.

    My addiction wasn't just to porn or images. While I didn't pay for escorts or camgirls/guys, I nonetheless loved interacting with these IG "models" or whatever either on IG, twitter, or youtube. Getting validation and attention from them was a huge driver for it all. I had to come to grips with that, but once I did, I was able to chuck all that shit in the trash, and get back on track, and not only that but feel orders of magnitude more secure in myself too.
     
  15. Amphibian

    Amphibian Moderator Assistant Staff Member Moderator Assistant

    I hear ya brother, I'm on the multi-year recovery plan, but I'm actually totally at peace with it.
     
  16. D0M4

    D0M4 Fapstronaut

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    Thank you for your empathy.It means a lot.Well I don't have anything to lose tbh.I have to do this.I'm just afraid I won't quit NoFap again.
     
  17. D0M4

    D0M4 Fapstronaut

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    Porn sites,IG,Yt you name it...and the thing about all this,you just lose pleasure while doing it overtime.When I said no emotion I meant that...And you look and feel like a junkie...that doesn't help when you are "forced " to interact with people who'd you "normaly" avoid.
     
  18. All I felt over the years was a constant flight and fight mode of anxiety. Nothing had any meaning to anything, everything was robotic, meaningless pile of shit.
     
  19. D0M4

    D0M4 Fapstronaut

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    Porn makes you go primal.It really fucking does.
     
  20. KeepGoingStayStrong!

    KeepGoingStayStrong! Fapstronaut

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    Now for 240 days man what about you?
     

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