Feeling stuck in a rut

I have been in this site for years now. Many times I attempt a streak, but fall after. To be fair, I noticed I don’t change too much for the next time I try a stream. I usually put a little effort in research, try it, and move on. Maybe I should be more conscious in finding a solution. I used to feel broken and that I am stuck with this problem, but I embraced it a little. I thought might as well give into the urges until I am at a position to fix them. Here is the situation:

Any slight similarity to the female body starts my motor. Since it’s already on, I’ll PMO to feed that desire and turn that engine off quickly. This becomes a problem when it happens consistently. Now, I’m in a cycle where a movie, game, or person in public gets me thinking about PMO and I act on it. A day or 2 most and the cycle resets. Today I came to the realization that I don’t know how to break this cycle, and I need help. I don’t know if this will be the final time or it’s another relapse waiting to happen. Whatever it is, I want to try again.

This time around, I noticed 3 major issues: giving into feelings, having trouble making new habits, and finding the right motivation

Giving into feelings means I don’t know how to say no to desires. I want to see a naked woman, so I go looking for her. I want to eat unhealthy, so I drink a coke and eat a dessert later. I feel lazy and don’t want to walk today, so I stay inside. I really don’t know how to say no to these feelings.

Making new habits connects with the previous because i don’t feel like continuing certain habits after a set amount of time. I try to spend more time on homework. Day one I was motivated to do so. Day two I got bored and played video games instead. I try to stop drinking soda, but I drank one in celebration which lead to me getting back into soda.

Lastly, finding the right motivation means finding something that is stronger than the feeling. I want to be healthier, but junk food tastes better. I want to stop doing PMO, but the urge is greater than the end goal.

Overall, I made decent progress in my past, but now I’m at a crossroads for which I need extra aid. I truly appreciate anything that y’all can offer me.

 

So essentially, stop winging it and take the time to create a plan of action?