I’ve had some great experiences over the past year, but I still feel terrible. I haven’t even kept track of how much I have or haven’t PMO’d for a long time, have no idea what or where I want to be in life (I can’t choose), am constantly anxious, am behind on both rent and bills because of underemployment (I’m an actor so that explains everything), but not sure how much longer I can do this for, or how terribly much I really want it. I need help, and want to stop asking my family for money, and want to stay committed to something but having a hard time doing that. I am desperate, losing my mind and am living on my prayers that I find something stable that will keep me going, and the reason why I’m so upset about it is because I keep putting everything off. Am I just human? (Or not lol) Is this just the way life is? I don’t want this, I want to be remembered for something good. How much will quitting porn improve all this?