Feelings

Counselling or psychology sessions help. Unpack what’s happening beneath the surface.
It gets harder as you get older. Being unable to connect is hard at times

 

you are a normal girl. everyone is afraid of parenthood and engagement in relationships but it will be good in the end

 

Brené Brown has some good talks on youtube about vulnerability, if you're interested in learning more about it.

 

I seem to remember you posted your age before and it is not old, also I think our shallow culture values youth for no good reason and it's good to be aware of that kind of message and influence to prevent ourselves from internalizing it.

 

Seems like everyone can relate to not being able to relate. I think it's only human nature to want to be a mother or father. That might just be the best experience this life has to offer. That's my ultimate goal in life yet my heart seems to stay closed. We all need love though. We need to give it and receive it.

Take initiative and make a conscious effort to make your dreams and aspirations a reality. But don't worry too much. Plan a future for yourself and work towards better days, but don't forget to enjoy right now.