FEMDOM ADDICTION

It's day 5.
I wanted my day to start at 7:30 am but it started at 11:am. The time when I opened my eyes, first there was anger and suddenly, urges are there to terrorize me. I told myself that days like these are the proof of one's willpower and I didn't relapsed. So, it's all good. I am taking 2 times cold showers daily, reading books and doing all the things by which I gain confidence.

 

If you want to get rid of that idea, start mastrubating to videos where guys dominate girls. Replace the idea of female supremacy with the idea of male supremacy. First, It will be difficult but in time, the female supremacy power begins to decrease.

 

Getting ahead in my journey....
It's day 6 and my desire for normal porn and sex came back. I don't know whether my brain is trapping me into relapse or if this thing is cured. The only way to find out is by trying to have sex with some girl. I don't have any girlfriend right now so escorts are my option. So, I will wait 2-3 days more and if I didn't hit the flatline then I'll go with the option of escorts.

 

Last night, I mastrubated to a normal porn video. The pleasure level was slightly less than the femdom one. I was in a confusing state of mind yesterday. It was brain cloud, depression, edging that all led to a orgasm. Fapping to normal video doesn't changed the state of mind but it helped a lot.
Today is the 8th day since the day I last watched a femdom porn. I started the day with meditation, following the time table that I made for myself. State of happiness in quitting the femdom addiction helps a lot. So, be happy guys.
It's time for us to leave this SHIT behind.

 

Day 10
Everything is normal. There is no time for porn or mastrubation in my life these days. I've completely changed my life. I am working towards my goals, learning new things everyday, Doing meditation, taking cold showers and reading books. Boobs can make me feel aroused these days, something that was not possible before.
I've got this.

 

Day 12
I am getting more confident and angrier with each day passing. The level of anger is so much high when I get out of the bed in morning. I don't know why my brain is like this but whenever I try to learn something and I don't able to fully understand it, My anger just reaches up to its legendary level. At this time, I don't fully know what am I doing and I talk in a bad language with my parents. When the anger period goes down then I have the guilt of talking bad to my parents but I am much happier in this state than of that femdom state. In these 12 days, I didn't watched a single clip related to femdom and I am proud of that.

I think that a person needs to fully understand like why does he wants to drop porn addiction. Like, In my case, My main reason to leave porn addicition is because of femdom. This femdom destroys my confidence, self esteem and everything that I want to have in a big quantity in me. So, It is good for me to mastrubate to normal porn or man dominating porn once a week. Doing this helps my brain to rewire more fastly than nofap. It is so much important to do this in a week because excessive mastrubating to this can cause a relapse on a femdom video.

Let's see how much days it'll take to completely shift my mind from sumbission to domination.
Thanks and Best of luck to all the brothers who replied my posts in the previous days. Without them, It would have been so difficult to reach 12 days.

 

Relapsed again searching for a real life situation. Brain tricked again. Urges gonna get uncontrollable again.
Not a problem.
90 days nofap commitment started again and will do my best to not to relapse again.

 

Thanks for the reply dude
Yes, I get it now. Last time, I was thinking of normal porn as a good thing to rewire myself but I was wrong. It leads to femdom no matter what. I am on nofap currently and i'll not watch any kinds of porn this time. I think mastrubation without porn and death grip method will be beneficial but first, I need to get to the point where I'll be able to fap without porn and choking my penis lol.
So, You also have this femdom thing. What stage are you at? Have you been able to completely leave this thing behind?

 

Edging is the worst part of porn addiction. It gives more dopamine to your brain than ejaculation. I am on binges for the past 2 days and It's like more than half of the day is going into edging. Well, trying to get my life back in control.

I have a mistress on a social site. She tells me accept who you are and you'll be happy(fuck her). Anyways, I was going to send her money this time but I told myself that I am not going to get into one more addiction that is financial domination.

So yeah, It's good but I don't know for how long. I need to get my life on track or else, it's all gone. I have nothing to lose in my life right now. I mean, What can be more important than your sexuality. So, I really think that a 90 day reboot will make me lose all interest in my fetishes but I relapse everytime I get to 2 or 3 weeks.

 

Estoy aquardo compa
Gran rutina helps mucho.

 

I would say FETISH porn is much harder to quit than heroine. If you quit heroine, you get urges for nearly a week and then environment starts to feel better. In porn, you don't know when you can get urges. It's very hard to determine how much time porn takes to washes from our brain.

Porn is something you can get very easily. There are certain things of porn that we see on other websites as well. So, it's like watching something related to your addiction everyday but not acting upon it. It makes porn a lot harder to quit than heroine.

When we see porn, we mastrubate. So, it is connected to sexual pleasure in our brain and sexual pleasure is a compulsary thing for all human beings. Heroine is only connected to dopamine rush but porn is connected to dopamine rush as well as sexual pleasure.

This all gives porn leverage over heroine.

 

Mas comunicacion se tenga con las personas de afuera. It will help in recovering porn addiction. In heroine, seeking communications with your friends group{who use heroine}is the main reason why most people relapse.