I'm a straight male in my 20s and to be honest, I consider myself to have/had a very problematic addiction to fin/femme-domination. The whole kink started when some of my followers retweeted posts from findom accounts on social media. For years, I can't go months without sending money and then talking to domme girls online. I've honestly been trying to stop. However, just recently, I got myself into a pretty traumatic experience that was very regretful. Basically did a live session with a domme that costed me a lot of money and ended up with a "golden shower". Although based on what happened, my risks are very low, I'm obsessed over the fact that I could have gotten an STD (my chances are extremely low based on what multiple hotlines told me). I would say due to the traumatic event, it has been weeks ever since I spent money to talk to or get humiliated by these domme girls online. However, what can I do to make sure that this *never* happens again in the future? Should I also attempt to get my money back for the live session? I hope I'm not the only one who suffers from this.