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RahulBuddy

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I had been into porn addiction since 20 years now and I used to watch porn and do the in-process stuff to make me sleep at night. This has been my story from last 20 years. I tried multipe times to stop watching porn, the most I could see is a month without it and there it came back. I workout too, hence no one could realize from the exterior but i know the fatigue and the lost energy I feel.

Now its has been 4 days for me without any sexual visual and still counting. I get glimpses of the porn or porn like videos I have seen and its very hard to stop myself on this.

I am trying to change my life and live without the need of Masturbation, any suggestions.
 
RahulBuddy said:
I had been into porn addiction since 20 years now and I used to watch porn and do the in-process stuff to make me sleep at night. This has been my story from last 20 years. I tried multipe times to stop watching porn, the most I could see is a month without it and there it came back. I workout too, hence no one could realize from the exterior but i know the fatigue and the lost energy I feel.

Now its has been 4 days for me without any sexual visual and still counting. I get glimpses of the porn or porn like videos I have seen and its very hard to stop myself on this.

I am trying to change my life and live without the need of Masturbation, any suggestions.
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were you masturbating and watching porn just to fall asleep faster or there are some other additional reasons?
 
I used to feel sleepy..infact i used to masturbate and sleep when i used to get triggers like some intimate scene or some revealing scene in a movie.
So, I used to feel contented when I used to masturbate even though from the very next moment I used to curse myself for doing it and workout and try activities like walking, jogging to cope up with it.

I had sexual incidences but sometimes I used to masturbate even about thinking what I did. I had some revealing pics from my previous relations , which I used to watch again and again while masturbating hence l, I deleted them. I am whole messed up.

I used to miss my morning activities like matches, classes just because I used to masturbate late at night and I used to make myself think that I need to sleep more to recoup for the lost energy.
 
RahulBuddy said:
I used to feel sleepy..infact i used to masturbate and sleep when i used to get triggers like some intimate scene or some revealing scene in a movie.
So, I used to feel contented when I used to masturbate even though from the very next moment I used to curse myself for doing it and workout and try activities like walking, jogging to cope up with it.

I had sexual incidences but sometimes I used to masturbate even about thinking what I did. I had some revealing pics from my previous relations , which I used to watch again and again while masturbating hence l, I deleted them. I am whole messed up.

I used to miss my morning activities like matches, classes just because I used to masturbate late at night and I used to make myself think that I need to sleep more to recoup for the lost energy.
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do you think that you could find some other way to fall asleep, aside from masturbation? Did those workouts, walking, jogging and other activities help in any way, or you still had the urge to masturbate?
 
Nothing worked , i tried to workout ao hard that my biceps would ache but still that urge remained. Even these four days of my NO FAPPING, I had urges.
 
That means that you weren't masturbating just because you wanted relax to fall asleep quicker.
RahulBuddy said:
I had some revealing pics from my previous relations
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You wrote that you were thinking about your previous relationship while masturbating? Are you now in relationship?
If you were in the relationship now, would you still masturbate or not?
 
If I would be in a relationship, I would masturbate If i didn't had sex before going to bed. Even times, it was like I had sex in the afternoon or evening and I masturbated at night.
I am not in a relationship now.
 
RahulBuddy said:
If I would be in a relationship, I would masturbate If i didn't had sex before going to bed. Even times, it was like I had sex in the afternoon or evening and I masturbated at night.
I am not in a relationship now.
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That means that there is something in pornography and masturbation that excites you ... something that you cannot find in regular sex.
Do you know what's that? What exactly excites you to see during masturbation? (whether in movies, pictures or fantasy). Some special type of girl? something they are doing?
 
RahulBuddy said:
I am not aware what is it that is acting as a trigger for me there
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Well, that must be something. If you can have regular sex with your girlfriend and still have to masturbate - there must be more to this.
Try to search you mind and feelings - What exactly do you feel when the urge to masturbate appears? What kind of porn / fantasies attracts you?
Answer to your problem is in that area. You must learn what the trigger is ....
When you find the trigger (there can be multiple triggers) then you can deal with the real problem.
 
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