I finally did the thing I was always to afraid to do, I asked out a boy I had a crush on!!!!!!! So basically were my success begins is I finally completed a 30 day no pmo challenge. I felt amazing after completing the challenge. I gained a lot of confidence and I started to feel more happy and feminine. I did relapse a couple days after the challenge, but no matter. I wasn't to hard on myself and I didn't completely go back into my old habits so I was still feeling the benefits. So this lead to today at work. Me and the guy I like are working the same shift, but different jobs. I was checking him out the entire shift and tried to get some alone time with him to tell him how I feel. I didnt get any time during work so I finally asked if he wanted to go to dinner or something after our shift. He said he would love to make new "friends" and we exchanged numbers. Then later that night we started chatting and he told me that I was cute and I said I thought he was really cute and then we chatted about other things and now were going to dinner on Sunday. Its literally valentines day and I didnt even plan to go out with him on Valentine's day. This is literally never thought I would have the guts to asked a guy, especially due to insecurities, but I finally said fuck it and I did it.