FINALLY I MADE IT !!!!!

Damn I cant tell you how long I have been waiting to write this guys. Ever since I joined this site about a year ago or so I have constantly told myself that I was going to write weekly. But I never really got passed day 9. So a few months back I told myself I was going to write when I get to day 14. LOL many months later here I am. I am past day 14 baby!!!! Damn this feels good as shit man. To finally say that I have successfully completed too weeks without porn or masturbation. Like two weeks ago that seemed impossible.

So how did I get here? Well after my last relapse I had a realization moment where I realized that I needed to stop being fucking stubborn and actually kick this thing in the butt. I had been struggling with this addiction for too damn long and I have never been able to get to 2 weeks without it. For a long time I felt like I was never going to get here. But somehow I made it here. Every time I got temptations I told myself these two quotes.

"I dont want it and I dont need it"
"I dont want to go back to day 1"

You will not believe how much just saying those two quotes every time has made a difference. My brain thinks differently now. When I look at a girl whether I am on campus or at work my brain is sort of blank. However every once in a while I will be like damn she is hot but thats it. See before if I were to even comment on a girl or look at a girl who was hot I would instantly get strong urges to want to look at porn. Now its like my brain is finally starting to rewire itself. I can think a lot better and not have to worry about looking out for intense urges to watch porn because I know how to control them.

For those who are struggling to even get passed one week without it I know how you feel. I was in your shoes for years my dudes. All I have to say is never give up fighting. Your going to have days where you want to relapse and where you feel like you cant fight it anymore. Just keep saying no. If I can do it then so can you.

Oh and for those who are believers my advice to you is to pray. For a long time I have struggled with my beliefs. I felt like no one was listening so I just completely stopped praying. But all it took was to just keep praying every single night for my forgiveness and for the strength to beat the temptations. So keep praying and he will listen.