Finally, This Was Hard

I followed nofap subreddit 2 years ago and tried a reboot but i relapsed and fell into the loophole.

i never engaged in the community and now i want to properly do it .

i am a male. 17 years old. student at high school.

i started watching porn when i was 11-12 years old and in the last 2 years my
consuption of porn and masterbating to it became a daily thing 1-2 times a day.

i was a mess and depressed all through middle school and high school.

i always have this habit of self-destructing myself specifically during vacation like summer vacation.

I Used to play league of legends everyday waking up in the night and sleeping through the day. while browsing social media and fapping to porn.
in this quarantine i realized i had a problem with these three social media,games,and porn.

so i slowly cut off playing games and succefly avoided using social media these past months only on occasion and i left this last wall which is porn to deal with last because knew it was hard to stop.

My relationship with porn was thats it made things worst if i was staying up all night playing games and feeling like shit it made me feel more shit.
so now that i want to really beat down this last wall and try to defeat it once and for all.

my goal right now is 30 Days and i am on my fifth day and right now i feel like my head is gonna explode while writing this because the urges i am having are OOOOOOF.

I also have a really long history of giving up on challenges like these.

I hope i am not alone and can continue this road until i find redemption .

 

I have so What do i do Do i pick one And comment on it everyday ?
Also Thanks you random citizen for caring it means a lot XD.

 

Thank you, Nico, Mencius and Chris.
I'm doing all right right now the urges are gone so thank you for the support
I joined a challenge (30-day challenge) and I will be commenting there every night.
also, I want to know how to have that option in ur account where it says my journal like you Chris and nice.
I posted a thread in the journal logs (under 20) but how to make it a journal or something...
nonetheless thanks .

 

And Now I Have My own journal.
Thnx Wandering Traveller.