I was wondering if any of you guys have found emotion/meaning after dealing with PMO or anxiety/depression. I have been on an antidepressant since 14 (I started PMO when I was 11), and as life has progressed, I have lost emotions or passion for anything. I am just complacent, I have come to think as you get older, you lose all of your emotions/passion/motivation/meaning. Is life like this for everyone? I just want to find emotion and meaning again. I think I will quit my antidepressant with my doctor because I think it has contributing to dulling my life. Do any of the older folks here find that passion/purpose/emotions/ comes back with time? I am tired of feeling listless and apathetic. I am tired of feeling like the world is covered by a grey fog. I wish life had the same meaning and purpose it used to. I feel okay and stable right now, it just would be nice to have some color to life. I want to feel the feelings I used to around family/friends/loved ones. I want to find purpose other than trying to convince myself what my purpose is. I want to actually feel it as well. I want to feel love towards my girlfriend, not have to convince myself I want to be with her. Thank you all.