First 22 hours

I'm going to document this journey because I think it will help me.

I'm starting off with a feeling of elation (as recommended by the p m o h a c k b o o k). According to this short book, it's important to remember that once you commit, you are free. Not at day 30, or day 60, but right when you make the decision. You've now decided who you want to be.

For the last 22 hours, I've been pretty productive (I'd say), although productivity is not the most important thing in life. Last night, I watched 127 hours. It's a movie about a man who gets his arm stuck between a rock and a rock wall in a canyon, and no one is there to help him. *Spoiler alert* He contemplates his life and realizes that he has a hero complex. He always wants to do things on his own, thus why no one will come to help him because he never mentioned to anyone where he was going. It made me cry.

I have this same thing inside of me, as part of my ego, where I think I need to do everything on my own. I'm getting emotional writing this. When I look back on my life, the best moments are ones that I had with people. That's always the case. Why do we try to be a hero? Why do we try to be a badass? Why do we neglect our human nature and try to do everything on our own? It's sad, because where does that get us? It gets us to a place where we are old and lonely, and all we have is the fact that we are "badass"? Who cares. Part of life is enjoying it with others.

Another movie recommendation, "Into The Wild." He comes to this same conclusion. Life is better when shared with others. *Spoiler alert* At the end, his life flashes before his eyes and the most beautiful moments are the ones he had with other people.

Never push people out of your life because you think you are better than them. Never neglect people that are willing to share amazing moments with you. Don't neglect people. We are meant to be social. We are meant to communicate with each other, in person!

This social distancing bull$h!# is a choice, not a law. You can spend your days inside and be a hermit if you want, or you can go out and do what you are meant to do. Share your human experience with others.

I'm starting to build muscle again. I ate a high protein meal last night (plant based) of scrambled tofu and beyond sausage. This morning I worked out chest and triceps, and had a smoothie afterward. I'm planning on going out to a bar later with a friend to see how it is. I'm excited. Self defeating thoughts are trying to convince me that I am not good enough to go talk to a girl, or to new people, but I don't want to listen. I want to live.

I'm starting to get into online business giving dating advice for men who want to attract women. I have experience with this, because I started approaching women in college to combat social anxiety, and it worked. It's been an incredible journey learning how to connect with people, and now I'm ready to begin my journey of escaping this addiction and being part of this community. I am so thankful that I woke up this morning and that I am experiencing life. I am thankful to be typing this. I am thankful for the breakfast that I had, for the text message I sent my dad, and for any and all moments of life that I experience and I'm thankful to be here as part of this community of men and women (mostly men) taking action to improve themselves.