So yeah, it finally happened to me too, I guess. After about 1.5 years without PMO I woke up hungover & horny last Sunday and consciously decided it's time to let myself slip for once. I didn't use P and funny enough, the thoughts I had were somehow a lot less visual than in the past. I take it that's a good sign. I don't feel bad about it. But a few things seem to have changed nontheless. I think I'll leave this website for a while. Recently I've been spending too much time thinking about (refraining from) PMO and with regards to the fact that I initially wanted to make PMO a SMALLER part of my life, this goal has been taken a bit ad absurdum. I never wanted to become entirely abstinent from MO and it sometimes made me feel weird that I seemed to have done so regardless. I wanted to get my sexuality under control, not surpress it. Luckily, the chaser effect lasted less than 24 hours and the urge to MO is pretty much down to zero again. That's cool, I like that. But I don't have to fight with everything I got to keep it that way. I'll try to do what I did for the past 18 months but now I accept the fact that I will fail at some point. Actually, "fail" is the wrong word, it's just part of the journey. If it happens every 18 months, I'll be entirely happy Take care everyone and see you in a while!