Thank you Waz. Your words are resounding in my head and heart right now. Today it got physical and I am covered in bruises from him. He is drinking excessively, back to the porn habit, and my discovery of it blew it all up. I ran out of the house screaming trying to get away only to be drug back in and thrown to the kitchen floor. My whole back is bruised from the blunt force of how he did it. My friends took pictures of everything. And even as I write this I'm seeing more bruises appear on me. I am devastated and broken. I cannot believe he is the monster he became. Finally there is an end to this , finally my eyes are wide open.