First Post on any online forum, and I'm happy its on NoFap!

Hey! So this might sound strange but I'm a guy who people think have it all, looks, confidence, charisma, charm but I feel empty inside and I don't know what to do with my life.

I'm pretty sure I use porn, sex and fapping as a distraction or as a way to feel like I'm doing something with my time or at least connected to other people on earth because I feel like I can connect to others because of my struggles.

I really want people to like me for who I am and I don't want to fall prey to the vices of the world. I already struggle with trying to quit smoking pot as well.

I really want some true friends that I can be myself around and I feel like I have every thing I need in life to make things happen for me but there is a wall I just can't break through. Sometimes I'll go a week with out jerking off or smoking and I always feel on top of everything but then I might get cocky with myself or I might question my beliefs or just fall into peer pressure and trying to fit in.

I have big dreams and passions and I'm pretty sure I'll waste my life away on these vices if I don't get control over myself.

I'm 22 years old, I have a degree in Film Production, I act in an improv troop and I've done stand up to open shows for a international headliner. So clearly I'm blessed but I just can't break through that wall.

 

Thanks!
I want to stop worrying about it, but it seems to be my default setting. So hopefully self control on these aspects of my life will carry over.