First Post on the Forum - Let's Kill This Addiction

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by Rolacola719, Aug 11, 2019.

  1. Rolacola719

    Rolacola719 Fapstronaut

    Hey all!

    First of all I want to say that the nofap community is such a well educated, intelligent community and it feels good to have access to a such a group of people all driven towards self improvement!.

    I'd like to explain my situation so far. My relationship with PMO goes to the age of 13 when I first discovered it. Since then, it has been a love hate relationship.. I've always felt I've been in control however. Maybe the odd few moments of shame and guilt when I've ventured into more adventurous categories of P. But I've always remained on top!. Not letting it ever govern the rest of my life.

    Until recently however, when I've gone a bit too far. I've gotten into the damaging and crippling habit of paying for sexual encounters, not with prostitutes or escorts however, but with people I know. I've been seeking girls that I know, that have been open to be paid for sexual encounters.

    I've never paid a girl for sex, instead these encounters have all been what I can describe as being short, degrading and humiliating encounters.. I've tried figuring out my thought process and all I can assume is that I some how get off on these humiliating and degrading experiences. I've spent countless hours trying to understand my thought pattern and what I need to do and I've come to this conclusion.

    I am addicted to these encounters, I'm addicted to paying girls for cheap 10 minute thrills (which haven't been cheap overall!!) And it affects me in every day life. Everytime I've had these encounters I've always ended up depressed, anxious and full of shame and guilt. I need to stop!

    It affects my self esteem and self image, i feel I lack discipline and will power and its draining! It's been a vicious circle for the past year for me and I can't seem to kick it! It consumes my mind and suddenly I can't seem to think rationally or logically.

    Its ruining my relationship with others, its ruining my relationship with myself, I don't feel confident with my money that I can spend it smartly. If I could kick this addiction my life would be 1000x better.

    This is my first post. But I have been attempting nofap for the past 6 months.. The most I've gone is a week or so. I probably give into my urge of paying girls about once a month and tonight I relapsed. I met a girl and she gave me articles of clothing which i paid for, say no more. I'm sure you get the picture

    I need advice and support, I'm all about success and whatever I do I want to do it my best and be the best person I can be. This is stopping me from doing that and in order to progress in life, I NEED to kill this addiction!

    Thanks for reading and i intend on posting regularly on my journey, no matter how hopeless this makes me feel. I will conquer this and come out the other side a better man. I'm always open for a chat with anyone so feel free to message me and we will do this together!


    'Every day, in every way, I'm getting better and better.' - Emile Coue
  2. Hello and welcome! :)

    We are glad to have you as a part of our community. Here are some quick links to get you started.

    Getting Started Guide | How to Use the NoFap Forums | Panic Button |Day Counter | Rebooting Resources|Forum Rules | Glossary

    If you wish to keep a journal of your progress you can do so in the appropriate section found here

    You can also take part in one of the many challenges available. It can be a tremendous help. Challenges

    Also, there are groups you can also join if you wish to do so. You can browse through them here. Groups

    There are plenty of wonderful, friendly and knowledgeable people here to help you along on your journey to a life free of PMO. I wish you nothing but the best!
  3. Hey welcome to the forum its good to meet you and have fighting the good fight alongside us

    Some advice:
    Be sure and give a look through all the threads, you might find something to be of great help to you.

    I strongly advise you to be active on your profile; start by choosing an avatar and then make daily posts to show you're active and needing support/encouragement. They've got a neat little feature that shows freshly posted statuses for all users to see. People will find your profile and give you
    ★People love to communicate in the profiles section and also the journal section. These are 2 of the most important sections. Also, we could always use your help in supporting members around the forum and in return you most likely will receive some as well!

    You should also highly consider creating a public journal (in the appropriate section[<-- link] for you ) and write about your days in more depth for us members to follow along on your journey!

    Last but not least: Good luck on your journey here, make sure to really give it a try with all your heart!
    Rolacola719 and Symbol of Peace like this.
  4. Let's kill this addiction friend! Stay strong!
    Coffee Candy and Rolacola719 like this.

Share This Page