First time here - have a question? Please advise

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by 30yearpornaddict, Jan 7, 2020.

  1. 30yearpornaddict

    30yearpornaddict Fapstronaut

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    I have been an avid user of porn for over 30 years. Somehow I was married for 14 years and my ex wife never knew. I have come to a point in my life where I want to be free of this addiction.

    Ive had times where I realize it's 3am or 4 am and ive been viewing porn for 5 or 6 hours. Ive spent beautiful sunny days sitting in a dark bedroom watching porn. I've masturbated for hours never allowing myself to climax so I could enjoy more porn or hunt for just one more picture set. Ive masturbated for so long sometimes that I am raw and get scabbed over.

    I hate this part of me. I want to break free. I want to spend that time doing other things.

    I have deleted all my porn collection but am not sure about one collection. I have many sets of pictures of my ex wife and I together sexually. I feel like its a part of my history and photos of a woman I once loved. Do I delete those too?

    I was sure to wipe free space after deletion. I don't want to undelete the porn if I feel the urge. Had a laptop that was exclusive to porn and I have reinstalled the OS wiping the drive. I need a fresh start.
     
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  2. 1Peter

    1Peter Fapstronaut

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    Hi there, thankyou for sharing. So much of your story is similar to mine. The hours I've wasted watching porn over a 30year period also and being married for 16years of that... I found it interesting listening to a guy on Tedx about porn is not your problem... for him it was a way of coping with/avoiding rejection/gaining approval which porn does and pointing out porn is not faithful to us as individuals because it is used by 71% of men and 38% of women.
     
  3. Alfa12

    Alfa12 Fapstronaut

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    Que es la línea plana
     
  4. Kligor

    Kligor Fapstronaut

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    Hi buddy,you should get rid of any porn collection and similar things,that is what i would do if i m in your shoes,this is just advice choice is your :)
     
  5. Flynn Rider

    Flynn Rider New Fapstronaut

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    Yes, you should get rid of them. I had huge success but got relapsed due to harmless Lana Del Ray video songs and reading sex stories. I even lost all morning wood.


    Everything is a toxic! Nothing less than a real woman. We ll win or die trying.
     
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