First time on the forums (need change)

Hey everyone, so this feels a little weird for me because i have never gotten involved in any forums before or seek'd advice from others on the internet but i want to tackle this hurdle in my life and i really feel this will help.

Quick little background, i started m at around 10 and got involved with porn around 11. I'm 22 now and have pretty much PMO'd around once a day since i began and have had ups and downs throughout my life where for a couple of months i might PMO 3 times a day and others once every second day.

I only realized this was a problem around about 2 years ago surprisingly as ive developed some unwanted fetishes rather early in my life which i just though was normal.

After realizing that Porn has been killing my sex drive and warping my brain i decided to to start trying to quit 2 years ago. I had some minor success and could go around about 2 weeks at a time but would normally give in. Then i found Your brain on Porn and NoFap last year, did some research and decided to finally try and nip this in the butt. I was incredibly motivated and lasted 54 days, was seeing all the benefits i was hearing about take place in my life and felt unstoppable, the fetishes had near but faded as well.

Then one night i gave in decided to MO without the porn as a once off. It had been so long i didn't even need to fantasize and got off purely on the feeling alone. Initially this actually inspired and motivated me more as i had actually physically experienced and witnessed all the amazing things NoFap had done in my far so far. Unfortunately though about two weeks after this my brain started to trick me into Masturbating without porn as i had somewhat conquered my addiction.

Well how wrong i was, 2 months later on here i am back in to bad habits and terrifyingly starting to slowly get back in old fetishes that have plagues me all my life. So now again im ready to the plunge and and conquer this addiction.

Sorry for the long post i just wanted to confess some things on here and any tips anyone has that have helped them in the past would be great

 

Thanks mate! i know i'm just struggling to reach the resolve i once had but i feel as though after the first couple of days this will change

I definitely agree with the points in your post, some of these things also really helped me especially with reminding your self of the reasons why your doing Nofap.