First Time Online

Hi all,

26 years old. I decided to come here because I realize now that I'm powerless over porn and, having had success using a forum to treat alcoholism, wanted to reach out and find support. I know I feel better when I abstain from it and that I'm a better member of society.

The intensity of my porn use has varied: in my early 20s I probably watched it daily, but it slowed as I aged. I would view porn anywhere from 1-4 times a week, usually for no longer than 20-30 minutes. But my attempts to stop have all failed, never making it longer than a month.

I've currently had 6 days free of PMO. But I know that around a week is when I start to get itchy. My last use was fairly innocuous, no more than 20 minutes, but I felt like total shit afterwards, as I always do. But what really scared me was the before. I had no intentions of using. I was actually trying to quit. But the thought entered my head during a hot shower, and I was done. I've noticed so many similarities between my porn use and my drinking. I know that I have an addictive personality, and I know that working with others is the most helpful. I've had success with a twelve-step program, so my posts will probably use similar language to that. I apologize if this rubs anyone the wrong way, but it's the way that I understand recovery and the language helps me express myself.

I like to share myself, but I know that more important is hearing what works for other people.

I'm glad to be here, and I'll keep coming back. Thanks.