Homerjfong23
Fapstronaut
Hey guys/girls,
Trigger warning: ocd, so-ocd, anxiety
first off, let me say thank you for allowing me to join your forums. My name is Jeff, and I am a 40 year old male. I suffer from ocd (specifically SO-OCD), and that can take me some pretty scary places. The other night I was sitting on my phone looking at p, and I happened to come across a famous p star doing interracial porn. Now, this has never been my cup of tea, although your opinion may vary. While I was scrolling through it, a thought popped into my head, “you like this, don’t you?” I immediately started feeling anxious and worried, because I’ve never liked that kind of stuff before. Plus, I don’t know if I could see myself marrying a woman of color…not that I’m a racist or anything. But then I start thinking, maybe I am racist because I don’t like the fact that this woman is being used by these men in that way. I don’t think any race is superior to any other, I just want to know that I am not alone in this fight. I talked to my parents about it, and they said that porn is a business, and just because it happens in a business does not mean it will happen in real life. I have even gone on websites to see if ir p gets me aroused, and it usually does not. Today, at work someone made a comment that “they went to st. Marten” for the summer…and here came my ocd brain, saying to myself, “yeah she probably hooked up with black guys down there”. This is stressing me out, and thiscombined with the new school year starting soon has got me all depressed and worked up and anxious and every other way I possibly can be. I do not believe that I am a racist. I believe that the p industry wants to make people attracted to what’s taboo or forbidden, and that’s what’s going on here. Please be kind and mindful that I amdepressed and anxious right now.
Trigger warning: ocd, so-ocd, anxiety
first off, let me say thank you for allowing me to join your forums. My name is Jeff, and I am a 40 year old male. I suffer from ocd (specifically SO-OCD), and that can take me some pretty scary places. The other night I was sitting on my phone looking at p, and I happened to come across a famous p star doing interracial porn. Now, this has never been my cup of tea, although your opinion may vary. While I was scrolling through it, a thought popped into my head, “you like this, don’t you?” I immediately started feeling anxious and worried, because I’ve never liked that kind of stuff before. Plus, I don’t know if I could see myself marrying a woman of color…not that I’m a racist or anything. But then I start thinking, maybe I am racist because I don’t like the fact that this woman is being used by these men in that way. I don’t think any race is superior to any other, I just want to know that I am not alone in this fight. I talked to my parents about it, and they said that porn is a business, and just because it happens in a business does not mean it will happen in real life. I have even gone on websites to see if ir p gets me aroused, and it usually does not. Today, at work someone made a comment that “they went to st. Marten” for the summer…and here came my ocd brain, saying to myself, “yeah she probably hooked up with black guys down there”. This is stressing me out, and thiscombined with the new school year starting soon has got me all depressed and worked up and anxious and every other way I possibly can be. I do not believe that I am a racist. I believe that the p industry wants to make people attracted to what’s taboo or forbidden, and that’s what’s going on here. Please be kind and mindful that I amdepressed and anxious right now.