First timer abstaining from PMO

So the first time I looked at porn was when I was 12. Back then I didn't even know what an orgasm was, but I knew that looking at porn made me feel good, but extremely ashamed whenever I would ever talk to a girl.

Lately my addiction has gotten worse. I can't go a day without masturbating and it has been affecting all aspects of my life. Having had enough of living as a hypocrite and betraying myself of freedom, I've decided to take a hard line of PMO-Free journey.

I've identified 2 major factors which has caused me to fail in the past: taking phone to bed, working alone in my room. Anybody with suggestions on how to deal with these effectively, please help a brother out.

Please join me in this journey. I will do my best to document my experiences each day.

 

Well, 1st day is over. Must say that it's been tough abstaining for the first time in a while.

The morning has been especially hard, since it's holidays and I've been more likely to stay in bed and fap. But I've noticed that I have thought less about sex when I saw women today.

By the way, how do people deal with morning wood? It seems to be a trigger for me and I want to be able to work around it.

 

Well, I'm sorry to report that I have failed my challenge. With studies and life piling on, it becomes hard for me to resist the temptation. So here goes another reboot.

The relapse has made me aware of just how deep my addiction runs, as well as how empty pornography is. I need to remember to read my Bible and pray everyday for strength against temptation from the evil one. Please pray for me also.